Full disclosure. Someone told me the other day that they thought I was possibly the nicest person they had ever met and couldn’t imagine that I ever got angry or upset or was mean to anyone. I quickly put that fallacy to rest and shared a few of my recent transgressions.

First there was the “incident” when I exploded over the lack of consideration of property in our clubhouse library. As one of the ones who helps take care of it (before the closure of the clubhouse due to the current COVID 19 outbreak) I try to supply some basic supplies for the librarians to use while they are volunteering. Post it notes, pens, and a calendar where we keep track of how many books are returned which helps us keep track of circulation numbers are provided.

Twice our calendar has had large pieces ripped off of it which took away some of our numbers for the month that were written on it. Too many times I have had post it note pads disappear. The final straw was when I took in one of those large cubes that had North Iowa Hospice written on the four sides of it. I went in the next day and of the 5 inch cube there was a pad of probably 1/2 inch left. I must admit I lost it then. I mean seriously people. Buy your own paper. I have since put things in a plastic container labeled “for library use only” and it seems to be working out okay but honestly – I don’t care that you take a piece but not the whole pad. Criminy! See – I am getting all worked up just thinking about it….

But yesterday I might have hit an all time low. The COVID 19 pandemic and the constant news cycle may have just broken me. Chris was putting butter on his rice and I yelled at him ( or suggested strongly) that he use the stick butter and not the soft butter because we don’t know if we will be able to get more. Seriously? Butter? Never mind that he was using a fork to get it out (that might have been more of the issue) . Ahhhhhh—–I might be losing it. All over butter.

Today I vow to spend less time watching news, less time on social media, take a walk and not worry about the butter situation in our household. I will not snap at my sweet husband. (I am sorry, Chris.)I will embrace the fact that we have a full pantry and freezer and can offer food to others who might need it. I will check on friends and write letters to those who might need a cheery word. I will spend less time on thinking about me and more time thinking about others. I will forgive those people who took my notepad and tore the calendar off. Because that is the right thing to do.

I am curious. Have you over reacted to anything since this whole pandemic thing exploded? How is your mental health? Take care of yourself and leave me a comment to tell me how you are coping in the comment section. Each comment means a 50 cent donation to our Comments for a Cause – Diaper Bank of North Carolina.