One of my blogger friends reminded me today that our moms are still a part of our every day lives. Dawn over at Change Is Hard wrote about how she was talking to her mom while she made a pie. Since her mom died in 2004 it was one of those “in her head ” conversations and I could identify completely with that. I do that all of the time.
There have been so many days since my mom’s death in 2020 that I have had conversations with her. Or that I have wanted to have a conversation with her. Those times when something reminds me of her and I reach for my phone before I think to call her. I read a book that I think she would like and I think I should send her an email to tell her about this book she would love.
Grief is one of those things that is so difficult to describe. The pain that comes with losing a loved one is so real, even years after the actual death, that sometimes it quite literally takes my breath away. I have been missing my mom so much lately and I am not sure why but there is just so much I want to share with her.
I want to tell her how wonderful her grandsons are and how they are both really amazing young men who are making a difference in the world with their lives and their jobs. I want to tell her about my daughters in law and what special people they are. Of course I want to tell her about Theo and his latest antics and hair styles. That would take days. Sadly, I can’t do that anymore and I am just left with the thoughts that someday I hope I will be able to share all my joys with her again.
So today I decided to go look through some of the scrapbooks and things that I have that belonged to her and connect with her that way. I am so happy that I have all of these physical things that I can look at that make me smile. Not everyone can say that. I am very grateful.
My mother hated to have her picture taken and it was rare for her to have a picture of herself that she actually liked. Most of her photo albums contain pictures of others and not herself which is pretty understandable. Of course this was before the invention of selfies and the ease of cell phone cameras but even once that was part of her world she wasn’t thrilled when I would whip out my phone to snap a picture of her.
But I did find this one picture that made me giggle. DO NOT TRY THIS AT HOME! There, that is my disclaimer. My mom is the one on the right of the picture.
It’s a great picture, isn’ t it? I absolutely love it and it shows a bit of my mom’s sense of humor back in her college days that continued on until her death. She had a funny streak running through her and this picture just confirms that.
So on days like today when I am feeling a little sad and blue from missing my mom I will look at this picture and laugh and think of what a great life she had and how blessed I was to be a part of that life.
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